It's 6:30 A.M. right now...I woke up at 5:30. I don't have work today and I have no plans as of now...that's weird...who doesn't have plans by 6:30 A.M. Russell told me to call him whenever I wake up today...but that's just cruel. Ha, I have no idea why I'm up. Probably just because I don't have to be.
Yesterday I drove my sister and some other kids from her school to ISU for speech camp. Russell came with me, so it was a lot less of a chore. I felt like a mom though, dropping off five kids in my Explorer with the luggage thingie on top. Haha. All in all, it was a fun-filled day...even though I was in the car the entire time. It was just nice talking and spending time with Russell, even if I found out some things I didn't necessarily want to know, lol.
Later I went to a pool party at Josh's house. Becky and Todd were there, but not really anyone else I knew until Dorie and Nicole came right before I left. I got a random "I was thinking of you" phonecall from Lizzykins, and it made my night and got me even more excited to go back to school and see everyone!
Going back to school......eeeeeek. It's definitely a lose-lose situation. Or I guess you could say win-win if you are optimistic. I don't want to leave my friends from home, but I want to see my friends from school. I'm really eager to have a schedule that isn't just working.
But when am I gonna grow up? When am I going to stop drinking and going to parties and acting like a 12 year old in any relationship I have? I mean, am I going to come home one summer and just stop? I don't even know if I want that. I guess I'm just thinking about the difference between a college student and an adult...that line seems so blurry. When does that change happen? And when the heck am I gonna stop being so scared and just trust someone.
"It's cool to fake romances and grow up fast."
I'm gonna go work out....cause that's what adults do to blow off some steam.
trust me, the line between a "college student" and "adult" is so blurry I'm not sure it even exists.
take myself for example, just graduated, no job, no place to live, still a ton of friends here in K-town so what do I do? hang out with them all the time.
Meg baby, you've got a few years to wait before worrying about the end of partying (because really, wheres the fun if that happens?) and aside from that, one day after you graduate when you realize you don't have any classes in the Fall to attend, you just broke up with your boyfriend because he isn't going anywhere, and you've suddenly been taken aback by someone you'd consider a 'man' (not a boy) well then, even if you still never want to grow up, you'll at least be able to upgrade your position in life to 'woman' and fuck ever being called a girl again.
it's a beautiful thing, don't fret it. College is meant to be fun and hard and nervewracking and crazy all at the same time.
I have a feeling you'll be just fine...